9:57 a.m. - 2004-05-05
you've been waiting for this u-date
I've been lazy as fuck update-wise, but it might be my near-constant state of sedation. Just possibly.
Last night, I was watching some of the original Little Rascals, like from the '30s. Josh and Maggie were over as my captives, forced to watch that shit. It's so weird because it's filmed and set during the Depression, and everyone as characterized as really struggling. Not having any food, not having any adult supervision and going around raising hell.
There's so much weird history in those short little films. THere is some REALLY fucked-up racism. Everyone's parents are almost always stupid and mean. There's a total young mafia feel to the way these kids instantly fall into a gang (they have turf wars and shit).
Anyway, why was that important? Not important, just weird. My days at the the newspaper are over, and even though this is a blessing, I am now completely un-anchored life-wise now.
Today, I need to call and try and figure out if I'm going to Seattle this summer. I applied to work here, and honestly? If I get it (it's an internship, just to clarify...not quite like a real job) I will...feel a brief glimmer of hope restored to my life. Or I'll go all crazy and jump around.
