4:04 p.m. - 2004-02-12
well, i've gone this way and that
Whatever. The crush is in love with someone else. This is clear to me. I am also terrifyingly high, which is making things a little easier to deal with in this, the moment of moments. What a terribly Sterling-esque thing to say, how embarassing (only E-Liz and Ms. N could possibly understand this reference, but I let it stand nonetheless).
It seems that I will be remaining in Mo-town this weekend, which actually opens nearly limitless doors and allows me to get shit done. Bless. Portland would have been a dream come true, especially with the state that I am in right now, thrusting the crush aside and dealing with the realities of never having had any kind of claim, any reason to let my feelings grow morbidly out of mt control like that...argh.
But, the parties this weekend will be absolutely MAD and I am actually quite thrilled to be saving money by being here and going all sorts o'wild with the friends.
Yes. Perhaps it will be all aright. As soon as I figure out where the smell of hot chocolate is coming from and devour it. Yes.
